myspacerant

so i havnt even been home an hour and im checking peopels blogs since i was gone ..,., and adam and kathryn have hooked up .,.., and hes amazingly in love .,.,., this is the SECOND fuckign time ive had a fling with a guy and him lose interest the second she walks in the room and if its ne thign liek chet was they will be together for a while yes i am pissed because im jelouse..,., NO i do not want adam i could care less abotu adam but you knwo what i do want i want some ot be obsesed with em i want some one to sneak out of thier houses at 1 am to " see my beautiful shinning fucking face before they go to bed at night" ..,.,..,..,,..,..,., im rather very not happy and im about to shut my self off i do this every now and again whern this depression happens.,.,.,. no guys no trying just 2 or threee girls i keep around the same ones every time .,,., but you know what im sposed to be strong im such an fuckign emotional train wreck .,.,,. i need valium or prozac or whatfuckignever mom said i needed that shit they give the little sad bean you know ? ./.,.,.,.,.,..., fuckign a .,.., i swear i must be bi poloar or somethign .,., either way im not fuckgin hapy right now .,.,.,,..,., fuck guys .,., fuck relationships.,.,., FUCK my LUCK! ,..,.,.,