confession, profession, apoologetic relizations ...

i regret never sneaking onto the roof
i regret never stealing pictures of Richmond from Kyle's 8th floor window

i regret spending hours in guys apartments waiting for something good
doing nothing but watching them play games and wonder why the hell I'm still around being bored

i regret a lot of things
most of all being stupid and not being selfish and letting my life live

i regret being so submissive
letting things happen that i should have shut down along time ago

i apologize for letting myself get this far lost
i apologize for treating you like a toy because it was the only way i knew how to cope
to take YOU and use YOU to make me feel like I was the one in charge because i had so utterly lost myself
and any hope there was left to have

you just thought i was a whore...

no... i'm just a fucked up little girl whose lost all hope and faith in love, decent people, and believing men at all

i apologize for my ways
even thought none of you ever will.