mr fisho the third!

i forgot i got a new fisho sundai! ... im in love with him ... my new baby .. i miss heidi and all but this guy fits on my deska nd he plays in his plant and i love it!!! yay... im so happi ...


sleep times


vic

ketchup

so i have been inspired to take this blog back up .. considering i need more thigns to do online and i miss people takign em seriousely... or at least reading and laughing and smilign and liek .... god i love tori and her crazy ways...

so college is exciting ... kind of .. see i miss people ... i miss knwoing people and being able to claim them and hug them and love them and make jokes and feel liek one of the group again and every time i think abotu this i think of hayley and kailee... and well since ive been here ive noticed a few other super close friends.. like maureen ... so to make my story a point filled one... i started to get super depressed this morning and missed high school and missed all my friends and decided to cheer myself up id go to kams room so i woudlnt be alone ... ended up watching him im a few peopel till i layed down on his bed and hence came the tears... at least i was quiet and not hysterical .... which is good.. but then he was singing and i smiled and i felt a little better to just release some physical emotion....
then later i got ahold of miranda and went and got food... miranda is my favorite person here .. she is soo adorible and shes leik me .. onli ... she dresses different lol ... shes so cute tho! lol we have the same exact build and we both have family in scranton ... isnt that wikid?! ,.... lol but yea so i went over and we called kam and watched bloody mary which was kinda an urban legend movie so i loved it to peices.. and mid way im gettign happyer cuz im relizeing .. i may not have a lot of freinds but miranda and natalie are super cute and sweet and ... nice.... and thats all i need ...

... i am still very sick of every guy looking right thru me tho ... but i guess thats just soemthing i alwais have and alwais will need to get used to ... i dont look particularly easy or attention grabbign ... so .. yea... im nto reali that boring ... i just dont wanna cut off people so im nutral .. lol ... i love every thing and every body so why shoudl i favor one over the other?

im babbeling ...

i miss you guys ...
and i love my new freinds...

its a good ... day

<3

(maybe i shoudl have mentiond i start ragging soon .. explains it alllllll)


-vic

hippie dippy shake

drunk hippie
so i met this wikid hippie .. lol she was so wasted but she kept telling me how beautiful i was LOL she was cute... i met this guy chase hes in buisness with me which is awsome! the onli other buisness student ive met so far! lol

life is decent im just bummed i hate losing stuff


lol but i got to turn down a new drug .. he said it was poppers? i had never heard of it but i was liek nah man its chill im straight so yea im proud of me!

husbands gf

so todai i did all my last minute shopping and what not and were in the mall getting me new jeans cuz i go thru jeans liek candy .. and we walk past pac sun and im lookign in and im like omg what a cute girl with short hair i wish i could .... wooooah!!! thats husbands gf!!!!!!!! so of course i went in smiled all big at her shes very cute in person ... her pictures do her little justice but yea.. so i had to post that .... lol

buuut i got a bunch of shit todai spent over a hundred bucks and mom bought half the shit too lol .. igot plenty of jeans .. three pairs of shoes a new skirt some super cute tops... im excited and i cant wait til tomarrow.. im on michaels comp right now ..

*squeeee*

im liek exploding.. im so happi.. im started fresh ... im excited im reali excited to meet kam tho .. he seems so cool ... one cool kittie.. ummm.. my room looks so bare i took so much off my walls and i almost started to cry cuz it was the first time i felt like i was moving... the cars all packt so now all we have to do is get there early and un pack but i seem to have an appointment at 12 so i hope ill be awake ... there is noo room in my car AND michaels not coming .. i had to leave a bunch of shit too ... *sigh* next weekend ill get it back ... *distracted* wow bad anime SUCKS.... lol wow im excitttteeeeeddddddddddddd





i shoudl go and get dressed or something .. ...shove some more stuff in the car... *sigh* moving is a bitch



*LOVE*

vic

shooting stars

last night i saw two shooting stars with ryan .... weve made every thing better.....
im so glad were not so angry any more

i need to get hayley to listen to my thing from jamie i swear t god... him and chris ... ja know??? lol


ugh ... no one reads this mess... *sigh*

i miss when it used to be hoppin and shit LOL


vic

lastima

sooo im leavign in 2 weeks.....
wow.
....
wow...
so i decided im gonna miss the fuck outta my dad...
i love our random spansih convos....
we had one infront of matt ibers (sp) ...... *laughs ass off*


mmmmmmm



im excited

o.,.,christ.,.,.,.,fuckme

guess who has to go to work todai .,.,.,.,,.



ughhhhh



crap

stroke

so mom hit a peak .,.,
she started bitchign first thing this mornign .,.,w hich isnt all that un heard of.,,. as a matter of fact im sick of it..,s ick of all her bitching.,.,., so shes screamign and yelling and carrying on and im in the bathroom minding my own buisness gettign ready to take out the trash she started to bitch about.,.,., while i hear dad ask what happend and shes freakign out gouing im gettign a shotting pain in my head.,., these damn kids are giving me a stroke.,.,. i get up and leave the bathroom onli fo rher to be in the door way and she starts screamign abotu how the house isnt clean and i need to vacuum her bathroom .,., and she sorta shoves me but the whole time she is holding her damn head cuz u knwo what she cant be calm.,. ever.,., irespond a hell of a lot better to "tori go clean my bathroom " that "TORI for fUCKs SAKE u DOnt DO SHIT AROUND HER U COULD AT LEAST CLEAN MY FUCKIGN GODDMANED BATHROOOM" yea id say i respond alot better.,.,., so moms having her "stroke" downstairs and dads doing that massage thing .,.a nd i take out the trash while michael cries on the stairs cuz "his mommy" is broken .,.,., yea.,., she was alwais his mommy he was sucha mommys boy i on the other hand alwais wanted to be by myself and if i was with any one it was dad.,.,

i guess things are different in familys that u wernt planned or reali wanted in .,.,, cuz u knwo what .,. im almost sure the reason shes so fuckt up is cuz neither me nor michael were planned and she was 21 when i was born .,,. i know she regrets it.,., btu u know what she can shove it up my ass cuz she had me and im her fuckign kid not her fuckign slave that hasnt met her god damn standards.,.,.,


vic

dreaming again

ugh .,.,
i drempt about school again .,.. in the dream i decided goign back to the high school is pointless.,., and i had class with matt rumphelt.,. and we ended up gettign together.,,.., and we were leaned down on the desks like all class just kissing and being all lovey but the wierd part is in the begining i didnt wanna hook up with matt.,., which didnt make sence.,., cuz its matt.,., whose children i ve wanted to have since i met him .., *sigh* dreams are wierd.,., i wish i would dream abotu my jamie.,.,..,

*SIGH DAMNIT*

im so emo latly.,., but itsok .,., im just realy frustrated why dont i have my liscence.,.,., why dont i have a car.,.,,.


*sad*


vic

dreamer

so the other nigth i drempt about liek a prom thing and every oen was there i remeber tamika and preciouse comeing in and precouse talked ot me and i was admiring her hair .,., there were those little white shells all in it .,.., and it wa sina biig pony tail it was cute.,.,the next day (ysterdai) she came intot hte store.,., wierd.,., last nigth i drempt abotu school iw as walkign around and i liek tripped on chet who was smoking a cigg in the hall way and mr scruggs just walked on by and iw as leik well yea makes sence hes the cool teacher.,., so then i sorta stand there and watch him for a minute im kinda ocnfused at this piont.,., i go to the bathrooms after lookign in a door waya nd seeing a party in a new club room and i walk int the girls bathroom door only for there to be no wall between it and the party and no doors ont he stalls .,., it was wierd .,.,., and no i didnt see chet todai .,., that woudl have freaked me OUT

iheartyou

Taurus
(April 20-May 20)
That romantic roll you're on isn't going anywhere just yet, which is just the way you like it. The good news is that the person you're sighing over is on the same page -- and there isn't any bad news.

rhinestone clock

wow so ive been busy.,., wow

ok so todai was a day liek any other sundai .,., boring as fuck then i go out with sarah .,., we go to see war of the worlds but first we go out to eat at amigos and our waitor was nice.,.,.,. and sarahs getting kinda antsy .,., moving on .,,. we go to the mall but it is very closed *DAMNIT!* sooo then were at the intersectiona nd i wa sliek theres a book store over there i wonder if thier open and THEN i see whole foods! *inspiration* SARAH weMUST go to whole foods .,., sarah sais " damn hippi" lol .,., so we go in and im like spastic searchign the store.,,. walkign along the walls and im giggling to my self cuz damni look silly .,., i tell sarah im lookign for adam,.,., cuz he works there.,., but alas.,,.., lack of adam.,., so we check out i bought me and sarah tea and water,.,.,.,.,mmmmm tazo peach tea is god! .,.,so the check out guy is uber georgouse and uber sweet and im liek do u know an adam who works here? and he thinks and thinks and hes liek yea i do i ask if hes working.,., " no i dont think so , but i can tell him .,.,., (tori) stopped by" so i smiel and thank him and walk out with a smiel on my face yay for husband now he will eb happi cuz i came to meet him .,., even tho .,,. i didnt get to .,.*sigh* but now sarahs cool with it so ill find out when he works again and ill stop by .,., yay but she kept going on abotu our lovely casheir who was gorgouse.,.,., but might be very gay lol .,., oo! i skipped the big lots part.,.,w e went to big lots and i bought my self some cute earigns and must have underwear! lol .,., shoudl i be ashamed i get cute underwear at biglots?! lol .,.,,. *sigh* they were fuckign cute and cheap so back off lol .,.,., oo but i like my earings.,., long and dangly .,., good stuff!!!

!!!!!AND sarah brought her jagged little pill cd and i got to scream alanis liek the whole time we were in the car!! she is my god.,., nothign higher than her in my book *swoons*

so the movie was amazing.,,.t he hot guy .,.,., was hot ,..,., and i dont mean tom lol .,,.,. and that girl is an awsoem little actress i love her! lol
ok im out .,., miss me much lol .,.., ill be aorund again

:::::::love::::::::

vic

feeling good

so im feelign pretty good im close to smacking mom and thelling her to grow up btu we all knwo that will never happen .,t he onli thing rigth now is ive been doign the junk food thing since last nigth and i feel grosssss.s,., ,.lol
well i think im gonna be productive and write in her later.,., ow ait but first i must declare this! while cleanig my room i found a million old letters between me and ryan and i read them and smiled and was liek god i loved him .,., we were in LOVE .,.,., were.,., im so fine with it .,., i folded them back upa nd put them awai and smiled .,., cuz i WAS happy and i AM happy .,., .,,. ps i might just love some one else.,.,


*heart*

vic

it needs to be august

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

grow the fuck up alreadi
Current mood: depressed


so yea.,., i dunno if im just pmsing or what but i realy miss certain peopel .,., i dunno how well im gonan take this transition .,,. lol ive actually been cryign cuz i know there are certain peopel liek hayley and kailee that i dont want to live with out .,., that are such amazing awsome people .,., that i wish i knew them from the get go and had the respect i have for them now so that maybe i could be with them way up thier above other epoeple .,., i threw so much away by just runnign in with the thrash .,., well hopefully i can find new friends liek them .,., so ill survive lol .,., i dunno .,.,



*depressed as a mother fucker*



*much love *

ode to hayley (i think she alreadi has one tho hmm) shes that good

ode to hayley and the peopel i miss.,., liek kailee .,., lol
omg im so gonna cry .,., i miss my friends soo much rigth now .,., just thinkign theyre gonna be so far away .,.,

i think im gonna start goign to hayleys on fridia nigth sfor movies.,.,., that woudl make me happi .,.,



*meloncholy tears8

love

she tells stories in her head

she tells stories in her head .,., in her mind she is perfect shes slender with beautiful curves her hair is perfect her eyes shinny and wide her smile infectiouse .,., every thign is the best,,,. every guy wants to be at her side wispering nothings in her ear .,., dont be delusioned she gets depressed she does live in MY head you know .,., she isnt with out emotion ,.,. which aids to her perfection she is obliviouse to the fact that no one realy enjois her presence.,. shes liked to block that part out .,., who wouldnt love me ? she thinks .,. EVERY minute .,., she isnt vain she isnt self centered just innocent .,., who hates? .,. remeber being six .,. and that one little girl sneered at you for no reason .,., remember that shock .,., people are broken .,., ever since shes tried to fix them .,., who hates? .,,. the girl in my head idles all day day dreaming of her many lovers who sit with her under the moonlight stroking her hair and shoulders lightly kisssing her all over loving every moment of her .,., or even the boi who shows up nightly at her window blowing kisses and waitign paitently and she creeps down the stairs to be held in his caring arms .,,. or the one who takes her out and when she comes running down the stairs to greet him she runs into her arms and he picks her up and spins her about .,.,,., and kisses her perfect nose.,.,., she dreams all day and when i lay her down and i sleep at night she wakes into my dreams for her rondevous and experiences life.,.,., im jelouse of the stars in her eyes and the suitors who becon daily .,., im jelouse that she is parentless with no boundarys and there is no one who isnt with in reachign distance nto to mention with in walking distance.,., peopel love her and give her thier world and suprise her and appreciate her.,.,.,.,.,.,.,,. she is beautiful and kind

she lives in my mind

she tells stories in her head..,.,.,.,..,.,./..,.,

myspacerant

so i havnt even been home an hour and im checking peopels blogs since i was gone ..,., and adam and kathryn have hooked up .,.., and hes amazingly in love .,.,., this is the SECOND fuckign time ive had a fling with a guy and him lose interest the second she walks in the room and if its ne thign liek chet was they will be together for a while yes i am pissed because im jelouse..,., NO i do not want adam i could care less abotu adam but you knwo what i do want i want some ot be obsesed with em i want some one to sneak out of thier houses at 1 am to " see my beautiful shinning fucking face before they go to bed at night" ..,.,..,..,,..,..,., im rather very not happy and im about to shut my self off i do this every now and again whern this depression happens.,.,.,. no guys no trying just 2 or threee girls i keep around the same ones every time .,,., but you know what im sposed to be strong im such an fuckign emotional train wreck .,.,,. i need valium or prozac or whatfuckignever mom said i needed that shit they give the little sad bean you know ? ./.,.,.,.,.,..., fuckign a .,.., i swear i must be bi poloar or somethign .,., either way im not fuckgin hapy right now .,.,.,,..,., fuck guys .,., fuck relationships.,.,., FUCK my LUCK! ,..,.,.,

pennsylvania and the like

so tomorrow im goign to pa with sarah michael and mom ..,., whihc should kick massive ass, were gonna go stay with ym gram for liek 9 dais..,., im gonna miss my person madly .,., but i dont see him as it is ..so its ok ill call him ...
i lost my head fones and i freaked otu and was reali loud looking for them so now sarah is awake playign with my magnetic poetry on my wall ..., i lvoe my wall ... i also love my person ... i like haveing this world i can run to when i feel liek crap and think to myself god .. life is decent ... so im gonna keep it awai from you so no i will not be sayign who he is right now ..,., but it isnt like you guys read this shit ne mro e..., .
i miss some peoepl who used to read this liek my kailee and my hayley ... i should look up thier journals again some time .... sept i switched computers so that might actually take soem workkkk .... im reali excited about august right now.... we went to orrientation yesterdai and im reali gettign the hang of it ... dude! i have a 7 am class on mondays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YUK!! i hope ill make it .. i shoudl be fine ..,., i adapt well ..,.,..,
im a college kid! yes!!!!!!!!!!! lol
mom startign to feel it.... she told sarahs mom about how im the first and shes kinda gonna reali miss me ..,., *score one for the first born! woot! *

ok im rambeling ill try to write in here mro ei guess .,.,.,.,
s









*FUCKINGlove*

vic

haveing jamies babies

so then yea...
lol havnt been writign in a while .. lifes settled down ... ryan made danny and chris back off... and hopefully every thign that ever had anything to do with him is over.......one of my favorite peopel right now drempt of me .. made me happi ...
i wish i could make him better


i wish i didnt obses....

ilove*heart*


vic

opps .. i keep losing track

so todai over all was decent... i went to work ... felt good.. felt pretty in my new shirt and hair i looked liek a baby doll... i was a little late but it was valerie so i was ok ... sarah went and picked up my lunch .... over all just nice calm and yea.. work like ... i come home and kailees party ended early so i didnt have to worry abotu missing ne thign .. then danny gets online pisses the fuck outta me... ryan has some balls .. hes denying everythign we ever had... scratch that he is chiken shit.... and you know what i never relized what a liar he was so i hope for her sake hes better in bed then he was .. and yea.. so i got ultra pissed and mom figured out it was ryan and danny so i told her i needed to go out so we went to the drive in so many peopel were there.. i showed up and went and talked to corey , joel , and simon on the other side of the fence and that was fun then i went to find bryan and show off my hair a bit and i saw shanna , flint, and nathan ... and chilled with them for the first movie then saw my morgan and danielle and cameron ... got morgan in trouble pissed myself off ... and spent the whole second movie bonding with cameron ... whihc was fuckign awsome! lol ...so yea i love meetign new people ... specially peopel whove had straigth fuckt relationship situations liek i have ... so yea toris in a good mood and even dannys little spirts about how im a fat dumb slut bitch wont take that awai

muah


vic