emotional orgasm

wow ... today has been a wild emotional day

first im on the bus .. half dead... dreading the day and not feeling like putting on make up .. chris rides the bus today and so every one is all excited and were flashign cell phones and pete listens to his cd player ... once we get to the middleschool sherri yells and says we obviously dont understand her and that she has to write up at least 4 highschoolers for cell fones and cd players... i wanted to cry
but i dont think she did it ... i hope it was just a warnign ...

then i get to first period late... ticked... but he didnt mark me i pay for my choir shyt and then i got chill out for a little ... only to get to do choriography for the rest of the class *yay* well we start workin on partner moves .. fun .. but akward... girls have to be all flirty and mess... and i was with joey basile .. whos a little taller en me but skiny .. were set up by height... but turns out guys have to lift and spin the girls at ones point ..... not gonna work with joey so i tell mr scruggs and that one kid who i thought maybe liked me offered to try .. hes kinda short but he could do it ...
*smiles* he did it ... alot

member how i said one of my total wants right now is for some one to be able to pick me up and spin me around ... liek as a bf gf thing ... well yea... im not saying im in love with the kid now or anything
but it definitly help release some of that need .. knowing that i can be picked up .. plus im workign on the whole losing wieght thing so by concert itll be easier for him .. nto that hes havign a problem .. but any way ive been on cloud nine from that for a while .... makes me feel so good..
no ones like picked me up and spun me since i was little . minus liek one or two times in 9th maybe i dont memeber .... *sighs* but yes that was a good thign ...
so then i slept most of second...
third was fun i got to talk to sela all period but i do that any way ...
4th was semi boring but i had magazines... and the tvs kept screwing up so the uva class was pretty bad lol .. but i went to talk to kailee and that whole little group and me talked about dreams and ish ... i should go for a quick walk .. i need to keep it up .. specially since im all crampy ... but yea .. so then i had givin kailee my ibuprofen and cell fone in case i got in trouble for the fone so i asked her for a ride in the mornign so yea we left and i was in the car and spazingout about the guy .... so tomarrow ... yea i dont know yet ... but i hope every thign works... im terrified... i just .. want ... never miiiind!
but my big new!!! i came home all just head spinning and i looked at the mail and opend my vcu envelope ... i was very liek o .. yea i got in ... woo ... hoo ? ... but then i looked at tuition and squeeled .... sooo much cheeper ill be able to pay off college in zero time .. and ill be able to get acar sooner and an appt and every thign ... so i wa sliek guess its vcu then .. kinda bummed but a little more happy ( i hate spending money) but then i call sarah who applied for thier arts department ... who will get in with out a doubt ... her sister goes there too .. but yea... she gets me all excited .. were gonna room together and life will be good ... im sooooo happy ill have some one ... and its sarah ... i love her!! ... but the thing that made my cry was the fact that when little girls grow up witht he same people and they make best friends they plan to got o colege and get married and all that sort of stuff together ... i never had that ... ever i moved to much... so i was liek omg .. its like my little dream come true and i cried a little.. i was so ... just wowed,,,, btu another mondo hugo plus is ill be staying here... so i can hook up with some one from school and i can keep freidns and ill be here for all the foot ball games and im soo fuckign happi!

i lvoe you guys so much but im gonna go work on spanish.....

adios!


vic