regaining my life

my hand is bleeding .. my poor hands are constantly beat up .. happens when you a hands on person .. except thier bleeding now cuz i went to smash somethign between my hands and i clapped onto a snowflake charm on my bracelette,,, yup both hands have little circle cuts and hurt liek a 6 yr old falling on thier hands on cement... ok .. so yes..

kailee took me home .. we were gonna go to toris house and get my hampster.... nu uh .. .tori missed the bus and wont be home for at least a day and wont let me and kailee go get it our selves... yup .. so me and kailee were wastign time before we knew this so she woudl have time to get home .. we went to the dollar store subway and foodlion ...k i got candels and cutsey pencils .. i met jeff somethign or another .. another 17 yr old freashmen ....... *sigh*****

i got to watch curtis play the banjo a little whiel i was finishing jessies necklace.. i made 10 bucks today .. but yea he looks liek a cockerspaniel .. lol .. i saw janice at the dollar store and we were talkign about him and i told her that .. she says he looks like plant ... but yea... either way hes got the hair .. today was tori mendicinos last day ... im gonna miss her ..

um ... im so tryign to preoccupy myself from this whole missed period thing but heres something pathetic .. i was reaserching pregnancy and at 4 mnths u can hear the heat beat with a stethascope .. and yea .. my moms a nurse so i snooped out her scope ... omg! it took me 10 mins to find my heart beat!!!!!!! lol ... i coudlnt find a baby one .. and i would be able to feel it by now so im feeling a little more confident .. cuz did u know the babys age is considered from the first day of the last period .. lol ... so that makes it exactly 4 mnths yesterday lol .. or if ya wanna be a smart ass about it only about 2 mnths.. lol ...

tonight im totally redoing my room .. well cleaning it at least ... im locking myself in mom can do her laundry .. fuck .. ihave to do the first part of the laundry and the bathrooms now ...

whata glamorouse life i own


love you

vic