never EVER settle for less.. u only live once.

im realy bored right now .. i think i have to ask mom to take me back to richmond friday .. i realy dont want togo .. i dont like shopping ,,, ill feel perfectly fine about my curvaciouse mess of a body .. then they try to dress it up in things that barely fit on a anorexic 12 yr old... esteem ... shyt ..... yea...
but im feelign realy pretty today ... very pretty... which is fun .. i feel bad for bj .... i know she shouldnt have done that but i dont believe in holding back . if you want to do something and the other persondoes too ... i dont beleive ylu should restrain urself just because its not the "cool" thing to do ... which um also got me in a lot of trouble .. cuz yea i wanted to kiss ian ... but ian wanted me to love him ... false emotions are in there somewhere... but not on purpose...

but yea that was a while ago

i realy realy hate being in school so long .. im so tired and angry and upset ltly..... i need to find that bottle of st johns wart ... i have no clue where i threw it... but yea... this blows..

i wish i was at home on my computer talkign to some one who makes me ahppy....... or i wish i was out hanging with someone .... i realy just need to be out... with peopel... im gettign realy ... ugh ... normally i go out with sarah alot and i love sarah madly but i need someone whos a little more me and a little more social... like kailee... i dunno ... i wanna go with a group of people...

i was talking to jamie the other daya nd i reminded myself of edward mckays... omg... if i lived in nc right now... id live there... gettign free books and eatign pizza... and if i didnt liek pizza
9liek i dont now) then id hit up pastabilities... best wraps ever!! lol ... god im such a dork on the inside.... but not a geniouse... just quiet booky .... half the time... *nostalgic* i wish i was there... sept mckays moved any way i dont know where they are ne more...

i gave myself a pedicure last night .. i actually have cute feet... im proud damnit...

im rambling wayyy to much ......


fucking ......

vic