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last night i didnt dream of logan ... (sorry babe) ... i drempt abotu hostages.....

i was in a house and all of a sudden every one was ebing held hostage so i ran out and ran into the house next door wich was mine and my family (there were liek 6 other people who were my "family" ) was inside .. also being held hostage so i start yellign at the lady tellign me to sit down so they can tie me up and order me around .. i was tryign to get her to grab me .. i had this thing on my finger which was a blade so when she grabbed me i stroked her arm ... (with the blade) but she wasnt really payign attention so she kept a hold of me and laughed and sayd it was sharp enough so i did it again but realy hard and she started screamign when i looked down and sayed you bleeding and made these horrible chocking sounds lieka dieing animal and we all ran out .. but then i ran back in with some 8 yr old who was my " brother" and tried to get a fone to call 911... and the lady came back and stabbed my brother and was tryign to stab me .. but then i woke up and yea.. im pretty sure i kicked her ass lol

daddy has been getting realy pissy latly...its making me mad.. its wierd .. i got more charms for my bracelette... its done .. its covered! its awsome .. mr fisho died yesterday .. i realy want a new one but thier takign thier time...

have you ever just wanted a certain some one to tell you how much they loved you and how much they only want you even though they could and have had any girl they pleased...... yea.. im wantignt hat right now and about to start my period so all my emotions are heightend...

in my dreams i have always either drempt of my grandmas house or a huge house where there is an area for me and only me .. most of the time im the only person who knows about the area not to mention the only person who goes there... well iw as just thinkign about it and it sliek ive been waiting for college since i was liek 4 .. ive always wanted to be away from my family and by myself but able to be with peopel my age ... peopel i wanna hang out with and be calm and happy....


i realy dont wanna be home rigth now ...
id realy liek to go to town and see logan ... only seeing him once is such a fuckign tease.. i just re relized how encapturing he is ... i mean he does still piss the fuck out of me cuz he wont tell me hes mine and thats all i have and will ever want from him ... but i doubt ill ever hear it .. but he does make me feel so comfortable and familiar and maybe its just cuz ive known him longer then most all my freinds.. btu i dunno ...

i really just wanna be with him right now..... damnit!



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