wow ... dreams are odd

ok so i was dreaming we were goign on our senior trip .. we were takign cars and car pooling all the way down .. i was so happy cuz hayley sarah and jennifer were gonna let me ride with them ... but i was gettign in the car and relized my fone was dead and i forgot the charger... so i was trying tot hink of who else had a virgin phone .. and miles did .. so i went to the top of the hill to ask him and he was being really nice and it wasnt really miles it was a mix of him and this kid named roach and prolly some one else.. but i was leik hey do u have your charger and he was like yea sure u can use it the minute we get there and he was being totally nice... i looked at him and was liek omg are you on x? and he smiled huge and nodded i giggled at him and asked if he wanted a hug .. soi hugged him ... like really hugged him ... liek i havnt hugged any one in a long time.. like just stood there... and hugged .. and it was almost liek i was usign him .. or more or less takign him under my wing cuz he was on drugs... but im sad now .. because i really just need to be held... its been a rough past while .. and there is not exactly some oen there for me to fall back on and relax with ...

well ill quit my whining

vic