o.,.,christ.,.,.,.,fuckme

guess who has to go to work todai .,.,.,.,,.



ughhhhh



crap

stroke

so mom hit a peak .,.,
she started bitchign first thing this mornign .,.,w hich isnt all that un heard of.,,. as a matter of fact im sick of it..,s ick of all her bitching.,.,., so shes screamign and yelling and carrying on and im in the bathroom minding my own buisness gettign ready to take out the trash she started to bitch about.,.,., while i hear dad ask what happend and shes freakign out gouing im gettign a shotting pain in my head.,., these damn kids are giving me a stroke.,.,. i get up and leave the bathroom onli fo rher to be in the door way and she starts screamign abotu how the house isnt clean and i need to vacuum her bathroom .,., and she sorta shoves me but the whole time she is holding her damn head cuz u knwo what she cant be calm.,. ever.,., irespond a hell of a lot better to "tori go clean my bathroom " that "TORI for fUCKs SAKE u DOnt DO SHIT AROUND HER U COULD AT LEAST CLEAN MY FUCKIGN GODDMANED BATHROOOM" yea id say i respond alot better.,.,., so moms having her "stroke" downstairs and dads doing that massage thing .,.a nd i take out the trash while michael cries on the stairs cuz "his mommy" is broken .,.,., yea.,., she was alwais his mommy he was sucha mommys boy i on the other hand alwais wanted to be by myself and if i was with any one it was dad.,.,

i guess things are different in familys that u wernt planned or reali wanted in .,.,, cuz u knwo what .,. im almost sure the reason shes so fuckt up is cuz neither me nor michael were planned and she was 21 when i was born .,,. i know she regrets it.,., btu u know what she can shove it up my ass cuz she had me and im her fuckign kid not her fuckign slave that hasnt met her god damn standards.,.,.,


vic

dreaming again

ugh .,.,
i drempt about school again .,.. in the dream i decided goign back to the high school is pointless.,., and i had class with matt rumphelt.,. and we ended up gettign together.,,.., and we were leaned down on the desks like all class just kissing and being all lovey but the wierd part is in the begining i didnt wanna hook up with matt.,., which didnt make sence.,., cuz its matt.,., whose children i ve wanted to have since i met him .., *sigh* dreams are wierd.,., i wish i would dream abotu my jamie.,.,..,

*SIGH DAMNIT*

im so emo latly.,., but itsok .,., im just realy frustrated why dont i have my liscence.,.,., why dont i have a car.,.,,.


*sad*


vic

dreamer

so the other nigth i drempt about liek a prom thing and every oen was there i remeber tamika and preciouse comeing in and precouse talked ot me and i was admiring her hair .,., there were those little white shells all in it .,.., and it wa sina biig pony tail it was cute.,.,the next day (ysterdai) she came intot hte store.,., wierd.,., last nigth i drempt abotu school iw as walkign around and i liek tripped on chet who was smoking a cigg in the hall way and mr scruggs just walked on by and iw as leik well yea makes sence hes the cool teacher.,., so then i sorta stand there and watch him for a minute im kinda ocnfused at this piont.,., i go to the bathrooms after lookign in a door waya nd seeing a party in a new club room and i walk int the girls bathroom door only for there to be no wall between it and the party and no doors ont he stalls .,., it was wierd .,.,., and no i didnt see chet todai .,., that woudl have freaked me OUT

iheartyou

Taurus
(April 20-May 20)
That romantic roll you're on isn't going anywhere just yet, which is just the way you like it. The good news is that the person you're sighing over is on the same page -- and there isn't any bad news.

rhinestone clock

wow so ive been busy.,., wow

ok so todai was a day liek any other sundai .,., boring as fuck then i go out with sarah .,., we go to see war of the worlds but first we go out to eat at amigos and our waitor was nice.,.,.,. and sarahs getting kinda antsy .,., moving on .,,. we go to the mall but it is very closed *DAMNIT!* sooo then were at the intersectiona nd i wa sliek theres a book store over there i wonder if thier open and THEN i see whole foods! *inspiration* SARAH weMUST go to whole foods .,., sarah sais " damn hippi" lol .,., so we go in and im like spastic searchign the store.,,. walkign along the walls and im giggling to my self cuz damni look silly .,., i tell sarah im lookign for adam,.,., cuz he works there.,., but alas.,,.., lack of adam.,., so we check out i bought me and sarah tea and water,.,.,.,.,mmmmm tazo peach tea is god! .,.,so the check out guy is uber georgouse and uber sweet and im liek do u know an adam who works here? and he thinks and thinks and hes liek yea i do i ask if hes working.,., " no i dont think so , but i can tell him .,.,., (tori) stopped by" so i smiel and thank him and walk out with a smiel on my face yay for husband now he will eb happi cuz i came to meet him .,., even tho .,,. i didnt get to .,.*sigh* but now sarahs cool with it so ill find out when he works again and ill stop by .,., yay but she kept going on abotu our lovely casheir who was gorgouse.,.,., but might be very gay lol .,., oo! i skipped the big lots part.,.,w e went to big lots and i bought my self some cute earigns and must have underwear! lol .,., shoudl i be ashamed i get cute underwear at biglots?! lol .,.,,. *sigh* they were fuckign cute and cheap so back off lol .,.,., oo but i like my earings.,., long and dangly .,., good stuff!!!

!!!!!AND sarah brought her jagged little pill cd and i got to scream alanis liek the whole time we were in the car!! she is my god.,., nothign higher than her in my book *swoons*

so the movie was amazing.,,.t he hot guy .,.,., was hot ,..,., and i dont mean tom lol .,,.,. and that girl is an awsoem little actress i love her! lol
ok im out .,., miss me much lol .,.., ill be aorund again

:::::::love::::::::

vic

feeling good

so im feelign pretty good im close to smacking mom and thelling her to grow up btu we all knwo that will never happen .,t he onli thing rigth now is ive been doign the junk food thing since last nigth and i feel grosssss.s,., ,.lol
well i think im gonna be productive and write in her later.,., ow ait but first i must declare this! while cleanig my room i found a million old letters between me and ryan and i read them and smiled and was liek god i loved him .,., we were in LOVE .,.,., were.,., im so fine with it .,., i folded them back upa nd put them awai and smiled .,., cuz i WAS happy and i AM happy .,., .,,. ps i might just love some one else.,.,


*heart*

vic

it needs to be august

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

grow the fuck up alreadi
Current mood: depressed


so yea.,., i dunno if im just pmsing or what but i realy miss certain peopel .,., i dunno how well im gonan take this transition .,,. lol ive actually been cryign cuz i know there are certain peopel liek hayley and kailee that i dont want to live with out .,., that are such amazing awsome people .,., that i wish i knew them from the get go and had the respect i have for them now so that maybe i could be with them way up thier above other epoeple .,., i threw so much away by just runnign in with the thrash .,., well hopefully i can find new friends liek them .,., so ill survive lol .,., i dunno .,.,



*depressed as a mother fucker*



*much love *

ode to hayley (i think she alreadi has one tho hmm) shes that good

ode to hayley and the peopel i miss.,., liek kailee .,., lol
omg im so gonna cry .,., i miss my friends soo much rigth now .,., just thinkign theyre gonna be so far away .,.,

i think im gonna start goign to hayleys on fridia nigth sfor movies.,.,., that woudl make me happi .,.,



*meloncholy tears8

love

she tells stories in her head

she tells stories in her head .,., in her mind she is perfect shes slender with beautiful curves her hair is perfect her eyes shinny and wide her smile infectiouse .,., every thign is the best,,,. every guy wants to be at her side wispering nothings in her ear .,., dont be delusioned she gets depressed she does live in MY head you know .,., she isnt with out emotion ,.,. which aids to her perfection she is obliviouse to the fact that no one realy enjois her presence.,. shes liked to block that part out .,., who wouldnt love me ? she thinks .,. EVERY minute .,., she isnt vain she isnt self centered just innocent .,., who hates? .,. remeber being six .,. and that one little girl sneered at you for no reason .,., remember that shock .,., people are broken .,., ever since shes tried to fix them .,., who hates? .,,. the girl in my head idles all day day dreaming of her many lovers who sit with her under the moonlight stroking her hair and shoulders lightly kisssing her all over loving every moment of her .,., or even the boi who shows up nightly at her window blowing kisses and waitign paitently and she creeps down the stairs to be held in his caring arms .,,. or the one who takes her out and when she comes running down the stairs to greet him she runs into her arms and he picks her up and spins her about .,.,,., and kisses her perfect nose.,.,., she dreams all day and when i lay her down and i sleep at night she wakes into my dreams for her rondevous and experiences life.,.,., im jelouse of the stars in her eyes and the suitors who becon daily .,., im jelouse that she is parentless with no boundarys and there is no one who isnt with in reachign distance nto to mention with in walking distance.,., peopel love her and give her thier world and suprise her and appreciate her.,.,.,.,.,.,.,,. she is beautiful and kind

she lives in my mind

she tells stories in her head..,.,.,.,..,.,./..,.,

myspacerant

so i havnt even been home an hour and im checking peopels blogs since i was gone ..,., and adam and kathryn have hooked up .,.., and hes amazingly in love .,.,., this is the SECOND fuckign time ive had a fling with a guy and him lose interest the second she walks in the room and if its ne thign liek chet was they will be together for a while yes i am pissed because im jelouse..,., NO i do not want adam i could care less abotu adam but you knwo what i do want i want some ot be obsesed with em i want some one to sneak out of thier houses at 1 am to " see my beautiful shinning fucking face before they go to bed at night" ..,.,..,..,,..,..,., im rather very not happy and im about to shut my self off i do this every now and again whern this depression happens.,.,.,. no guys no trying just 2 or threee girls i keep around the same ones every time .,,., but you know what im sposed to be strong im such an fuckign emotional train wreck .,.,,. i need valium or prozac or whatfuckignever mom said i needed that shit they give the little sad bean you know ? ./.,.,.,.,.,..., fuckign a .,.., i swear i must be bi poloar or somethign .,., either way im not fuckgin hapy right now .,.,.,,..,., fuck guys .,., fuck relationships.,.,., FUCK my LUCK! ,..,.,.,