Fleeting

There is something to be said about someone who has managed to maintain a relationship longer than a matter of months, something about having a long term anything might prove to yourself that everything isn't fleeting.
This is something I wouldn't know.
In my life everything is fleeting, nothing has lasted. I guess the only things that have ever lasted in my life is my parents and my brother and even that is so here or there that its irrelevant.
It is rather distressing to be able to tell one exactly how a situation is going to end
having done the same patterns over and over again.

If there is no title, I get to stick around long enough for him to find himself/ recoup/ be happy and then little miss perfect shows up and I am just a "friend" ....
kiss of death .

lovely.

If its all happy and good and I am the one to leave then its out of boredom.
...... I really hope that this isnt a constant. I would like to think that the cure is to find someone who will never bore me, but when was the last time that someone could actually do that.
Life is consistently moving forward, therefore always changing, always something new and forward and mostly better. How can ANYone expect someone to be able to match them step for step in a life that will never be the same as it was 20 mins ago. Is personality and chemistry enough ? Tolerance? Patience ?

And even those things are hard enough to match.
Trust me.