wana know what my dreams ar elike right now? how life has been for the past yr ?

you fucker
didnt you know
i can already see the twists

i can always see the twists

she is crying
you are kissing her
she is crying
she is up against the wall and she is screaming
you are kissing you
why cant you hear her scream
why cant you see she is crying

you are kissing her.

stop reminding me that failed

hello
this is my names
this is my face
i reject you
nice to meat you

i told you
i told you
i FUCKING told you
i told me
nothing would come of it
nothing would fucking come of it

stop your fuckign dreaming
if you want to end up happy
stop building fuckign castles

stop fuckign dreaming

I FUCKING TOLD YOU

stop you goddamned crying

your suposed to be strong you purile brat

you cannot be strong and the victim at the same time

broken is not beautiful



they only want to fuck you .

so do it and move on already,
and for god sakes quit you fucking crying.

confession, profession, apoologetic relizations ...

i regret never sneaking onto the roof
i regret never stealing pictures of Richmond from Kyle's 8th floor window

i regret spending hours in guys apartments waiting for something good
doing nothing but watching them play games and wonder why the hell I'm still around being bored

i regret a lot of things
most of all being stupid and not being selfish and letting my life live

i regret being so submissive
letting things happen that i should have shut down along time ago

i apologize for letting myself get this far lost
i apologize for treating you like a toy because it was the only way i knew how to cope
to take YOU and use YOU to make me feel like I was the one in charge because i had so utterly lost myself
and any hope there was left to have

you just thought i was a whore...

no... i'm just a fucked up little girl whose lost all hope and faith in love, decent people, and believing men at all

i apologize for my ways
even thought none of you ever will.