trance techno fisho

weekends are awsome
boy friends are best
fish are good and so is tea

ok so my weekend

friday i slack .. but i manage to go in for my meetign .. change my major .. get my advising done and yay thats besides the 3 classes i had to do and gettign up at 7 am to do homework but i didnt go swimming :( it was entirely to cold to risk being outside with kinda wet hair .. so i decided we'll start when i get back and every one is feeling well

i call adam liek 5 times... get a little worried and then he calls me back and hes coming ...
yay
they show up and i get in the car meet the mommy .. who is adorible as hell and super nice to me .. and then were on our way to pet smart ...
im a little worried that i ddint wait till after thanksgiving break but i got week end feeders so they shoudl be ok i got a beta who seems to change colors .. hes got red fins and a white bluegreen and red body ... his name is trance fisho ... ie mr fisho the 4th......
i bought 5 feeder fish
one with a mohawk - levi
a gold one - mitus
a white one with orange on his head - mouse / chicken (lol he looks like a hen , un gallina!)
one with a thicker mohawk - leopold 2
and one with a black middle - barthalamew

after pets i got adams suprise ready ... ie we went out with amanda and had kirk meet us ... adam says he knew what the suprise was but he was glad thats what it was any way .. so yay

kinda lol

so we hang out im happy cuz adam got to see his friend and i m hanging out with amanda and its justa good night ... so then we come back to dorm and im laying in my bed coughing so he goes and makes me some tea comign back periodiclya nd he said soemthgin that made me so incredibly happy that i almost melted into my bed and had happy tears lol
turns out our favorite angry boy is capable of love...

*smiles*

dude! he made me tea.......
yay ...

mmm

so anyway ... the rest of the weekend ... kissy face and all that jazz ... and yea... some cryign from me ... whihc is a mix of horomones and other... SUCKED!!
but he made me feel better which is ... very yay

um ...

i showed mike and richard and sarah my fishos... :)

i love them ...

levis my favorite...
and fisho fisho of course!

trance...

i liek it ..

well ok then i think im gonna go prep for mondaya nd get my psych done too

i love

<3

toribeth

i know what yoru thinkign and i dont need your reasons

how come your sns so hard to pronounce
cuz im bitter that my last name isnt schmulovitz

heheh

miss me ?
of course not your not there ...

so any way college is decent im goign home tuesday to go to pa wednesday morning
and of course ill be ragging over thanksgiving ... eat much >? i deffintily will
sucks

im gonna start swimmign on friday
im gonna have so much to do friday
i have to go to an 8 am class then to an advisor for a walk in hopefully ill get it in time for my next class so i can get the classes i want ...and need
btw if u didnt know im switiching my major to bio from acounting so yay ... every ones leik .. wow what a change .. but its time for change .. and yea
healthyer hopefully and yea
im just sick of being sick and feelign like crap 24 7

tomarrow nigth adams coming over his mommys gonna take us to pet smart to get fish .. yay .. ive been needing new fish for a while ... and some pebbles and a new plant ... i kinda killed that too

my room for once isnt terible and its a thursday .. normally this is its peak of trashed
i recomend at least a dorm life to every one ...
i love it here so much ...

im putting third floor on quarentine tho... every one is sick and ONE of them got me sick ... and i need to be well already .. sick for 2 mnths with 3 different things!!!!

ack!

i blame the fuck outta them lol but i love the fuck outta them ..

umm .. its cooold out today its been sooo nice out but i went out this mornign and froze my ass off ...

*sigh* make the heat come back .. and my hair too while ur at it .. its gettign long but not long enough

<3
victori

my weekend

kinda really sucked


but only kinda

friday night ... i whined on the foen and the online wiht adam as in why he isnt here right then while breaking out .. YUK i also went over to mikes cuz iw as very bored we went to schafer then came back and hung out surfed the net a bit then i got on the fone so he started to play video games with tony and i played withboo the vibrating hampster conciouse with strap on wings *big 6 yr old smile* and then i read the anime its from went back to my room talked to adam on line and finished the anime and took it back to get the second one...


saturday i slept in ..mom woke me upw itht he fone .. the alarm went off while i was on the fone and i got off the fone and started to go backt o sleep then adam called me ... i got off the fone with him and went back to bed waitign for maureen to call ... sept we had a fire alarm instead.... very very yuk ... i get outta bed throw some clothes on throw my bra in my bag ... no socks... grr so i go intot he stairs and i can smell burning ... it smelled awful.... so im liek o shit somethign is seriously happening ... so were outside im covering my self wait to find peopel i know ... i find mike and go to schafer with him and soem people i get there get cereal and sit with carlton whose by himself and we talk a bit .. apparently im a lesbian said the gay man ... *sigh* im not a lesbian ... so i go sit with kristen and phil when he leaves... they are carrying around laundry ..
so we sit as long as possible calling the 3rd floor ra and trading storys about what happend ,,... where there for abotu 2 - 3 hrs.... we go outside and check on the building after they get enough of me bitchign about how i NEED to go buy a tooth brusha nd toothpaste... btu at that point i decide we should go to the book store instead they have comfy chairs and i wanted to do some shopping ...
i get some stuff for the 2 guys in my life .. bf and dad... and feel accomplished.. i talk to parentals about what happend and details ... apparently this is what happend

somethign in the elevator shaft ie: rubber belt .. caught fire causing the hall sprinklers on 11 to go off and the elevators to flood...

so now we had to wait till abotu 6 to get back in the dorm and that was ok cuz thats when we got back .. and maureen showed up ... bad thing is ... no hot water and no elevators... we can go shower at rhodes... but i dont really want to do that so ill wait a little while it shoudl be fixed soon ...
um we all went out with maureen then we came back and watched the phantom of the opera.. i fell asleep again .. i told her i would .. but i had also taken cough medicin ...
so we walked back upstairs... YUK and then i was liek ok nigh nigh ... sleepy cough medicined up tori was not up much longer... only to wake up to my alarm then again maureen beign awake and ready to go ... go where???

hmm so we went for breakfast i wante dto take her to alpine bagel for iced coffee... mmm .. didnt know they were closed on sundays...
so we shafered it ..
o well .. came back talked to melodya dn tim.. i sang for tim and he said it gave him hope and i said for what and he said that there is still talent in this world .... and it made me sooo happy ...

o last nigthi for got we played pool too i saw ben and snack yay! i danced with ben it was interesting he wa sliek woudl u liek to dance and started doing this swing thing with me and it made me smiel but he also like picked me up before hand i love being in the air! lol bens my hero ...

umm i won the first game of pool lost majorly the second while iw as danceing maureen hit liek all of my balls in ..:(

so yea... today ... so i justw alked up 12 flights to do my psych homework ... and im coughing much .... i think ill do psyc study some then passsss out

tuesday im goignt o an si meetign then figureing otu how to do my major swtichign ...

mmmm pringles...

yay
ok so the weekend was only kinda bad but elevators... that SUCKS

<3

paper on womens shape and hollywood

My entire life I have been surrounded by women of the curvaceous decent. I am not related to any model thin women. Watching TV as a child I began to understand that curvy women are not really people who can make it onto the big screen or even onto the little one. When you are young and you notice people shunning the sort of person you are doomed to become you start to notice the treatment of curvaceous women in every aspect of life. Supposedly in Hollywood curvy women are appreciated and thought of as strong, but it doesn't make sense that the people saying this, especially the women who say this, still tend to be annorexicly thin and excersize-aholics.
While watching MTV and awards shows where the hosts critique the women and how they look you notice lately that full figured women tend to be put on a pedestal for being strong and independent but it tends to translate more into that they are brave to be seen looking like that . If these women are so wonderful and powerful then why are more and more actresses starting to look like Paris Hilton's shadow. Girls like Lindsey Lohan and Nichole Richie are losing weight faster than anyone should naturally. They all turn out looking like sickly skeletons and once more the standards in fashion magazines drop a size and more girls develop image disorders.
In the grocery stores there are tabloids depicting these shadows with headlines asking when is thin too thin. The public reads these papers and looks at these stars while frowning and commenting on the fact that you would think they would be rich enough to afford some food, but then again they are also rich enough to have the food sucked right back out. Then the public does not care anymore because the thought of being that rich helps get their attention back to envying the stars. Stars are existent almost to only be envied in every way, they are who they are so that the majority of the population thinks that they are who they are supposed to be like. If an image is being sold to women all over the country then shouldn't it be how every woman should look? Unfortunately most women see things this way and have no idea they are trying to make themselves look like the women with unattainable looks, and they entirely leave out the fact that these women are not necessarily as beautiful as we would like to believe they are.
Women like Liv Tyler and Queen Latifah are strong beautiful women. The one problem is that when people look at them they see a statement. Queen Latifah is very proud of her image and wants other full figured women to use her as a role model and be happy with themselves, but people still look at her and think large. The public smiles and says, “ What a pretty face , shame about her waistline.” but still manages to avoid using the word fat like one avoids naming other ethnicities, to be polite.

“ The don't talk about it and don't acknowledge it.
No one will use the word fat in front of you. They use
circumlocution , like zoftig or heavy, or say that you have
a pretty face.” (15, Millman)

In magazines such as Teen, Seventeen, and YM are aimed at girls ages 14 to 19 and are full of girls modeling the latest fashions. These magazines started bragging that they were using “real girls” in their photo shoots to model their clothes. Girls wrote in asking where the “real girls” were because they were not any where to be found. The average weight for an adult woman in the United States is 162.9 lbs (About.com), and most of these girls in the magazines can barely pass for 110. The main problem with this is that fashion magazines aimed at teens are very influential in how young women view themselves. Girls use these magazines as standards, and most of these standards are entirely unreasonable. Looking through the November 2005 issue of Teen People I managed to find only one section even featuring a curvaceous model, this article featured three different fashions and only 3 out of the 12 girls were classified as “ curvy”. Magazines and advertisements are not new when it comes to this kind of effect, in the 1950's an advertisements to keep women feminine stated “If I have only one life, let me live it a blond,” caused quite an effect on women of the time.

“And across America, three out of every ten women
dyed their hair blond. They ate a chalk called Metrecal,
instead of food, to shrink to the size of the thin young models.
Department-store buyers reported that American women, since
1939, had become three and four sizes smaller. “Women
are out to fit the clothes instead of vice-versa,” one buyer said.”
(17, Friedan)

Some people blame Barbie. Barbie is 12 inches and to even imagine being proportional to her would require you to be at least 7 feet tall. But I grew up with multiple Barbies, just about every girl in my age group did, and I'm pretty sure it was not the only factor in the image issues girls have today but it might have aided it.
Why is Hollywood so backwards when it comes to reality, shouldn't it just be reality magnified instead of just backwards and distorted? How can these girls survive being as thin as they are, is someone behind them holding their marionette strings, making them dance?
Being a teenager during the time when eating disorders are being publicized I have faced a few complexes. I have come across people who were anorexic and proud, whole groups of people who post pictures of them selves in skeletal form. The website contains tips and motivation for girls who are “pro-ana”, anorexic and not looking to stop. I could never understand these girls, who wants to look like a skeleton, what is sexy about a pile of bones with no breasts or hips? Who really wants to look like that? After asking myself these questions I turn to images of models who look like something stolen from a grave. These are our role models. This is what impressionable youth and naive public think that we are supposed to obtain to maintain happiness and success.
Like anorexia is caused by wanting to be these skeletal women over eating is aided in the desire to be desired. Some girls look through these magazines and photos only to feel like it is and impossible goal to be even near thin and begin to eat. Over eating is not healthy at all and only causes unhappiness. Having society push these sort of stereotypes on the women of America is only making the gap wider for what is thin and what is obscene.
There are women out there who should be appreciated for the size they are and the attitude they maintain. There are curvy women who are strong and beautiful role models for our youth, but for the most part the entertainment industry is placing an unneeded pressure on the women of America to be unnecessarily thin. Women were created to bear children and be strong , beautiful, and sexy, why can't Hollywood remember this and recreate it?